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Spring Cleaning Challenge
by Felicite de Chocolat (babydollbonkers)
at May 5th, 2016 (10:05 pm)

I'm feeling: accomplished
I'm hearing: Tame Impala - The Less I Know The Better

So... A while back (a little over three years ago, to be exact), I'd posted something about maybe doing a spring cleaning challenge. The goal was to knock the rust off my ass and start writing for this fandom again. Unfortunately, after I posted it, I sort of forgot all about it - until I happened to be perusing old posts today and came across it. Subsequently, I thought I would try my hand at coming up with a short little one-shot about John and spring cleaning. (And that's when I realized how truly rusty I am.) I don't know if anyone is still around to read this, but I thought I would post it anyway.

He’d always loved spring.

It was a beautiful time of year; save the seasonal allergies that plagued him for the first few weeks after spring arrived, there was nothing about the season that he didn't look forward to. The flowers were blooming, the days were getting longer, and the world was coming to life again in a way that made him think of the rebirth of a dead planet.

New beginnings. That's what spring inspired. As he looked around his flat, he nodded to himself. Spring was a good time to start fresh.

It had been two months since she’d packed up her things; two months since she’d decided that she didn't love what they had enough to fight for it. Two months, and he was still finding bits of her strewn around the place that the two of them had called home for so long. And though London was her actual home, being there as an alien of sorts was always a more appealing thought when he considered how much better it was with her there.

Now she was gone, and he wondered why he stayed.

Perhaps there was some part of him that thought she might return. “It isn't that I don't love you anymore, John,” she’d asserted, when he'd asked if there was something he'd done to make her love him less. “But you and I are at different stages in our lives. It isn't fair for me to ask you to wait, and it isn't fair for you to ask me to skip this part of my life to settle down.”

She was right, of course - she always was.

That didn't make it any less painful.

New beginnings, he thought again, his mind taking him back to his childhood. His mother would always tell him that spring was a good time to clean. “The seasons are starting off with a clean slate,” she’d laugh. “Why shouldn't we follow suit?” Maggie Mayer had been referring to housecleaning, in an attempt to get her middle son to see the value of a clean room. But he thought the principle could work to suit his purposes, even as an adult.

He hunted around for a bit, gathering things in a small hamper that Julie had left behind. Every item of clothing, every book, every box of that godforsaken tea that she was so fond of drinking - he threw it all in the hamper. Every reminder of what they’d shared together, what might have been, what probably never would… There wasn't any need to hold on to it any longer; they were remnants of a past life that had slipped through his fingers and fallen to the ground, shattered along with his dreams of a permanent future with the woman he loved. He collected those remnants, with a grim sort of determination that made him feel anything but lighthearted.

But if there was one thing he’d learned from his mother’s insistence on her yearly spring cleaning, it was this: cleaning up old things was a way of making room for new ones. Maybe there wouldn't be a new Julie for a long time to come. After all, his heart was still sore and tender from where she’d bruised it. It was likely to be a while before he’d be willing to open it up again. But there was a catharsis in collecting the bits of her that reminded him of his time with her, a satisfying feeling of knowing that he’d begun that journey that would help him to heal, that emotional spring cleaning that would put his heart on the road to recovery.

Spring was a time for new beginnings, and he was finally ready to make his.


Posted by: rubydooby (rubydooby)
Posted at: May 15th, 2016 10:54 pm (UTC)

Yay for spring and new beginnings :-)))) I still lurk around here sometimes...rereading old stories and wishing there was still someone around who would be interested if I ever got my ass up to write...and more importantly looking around if there was anybody else: And there you are! And such a good short! I loved the spring cleaning theme and the hints and info about the old relationship... If you ever feel like writing more...I could totally see this go to other places...but if you don't: it's also great fun the way it is! :-) Ugh! I really hope we're not the only ones who sometimes miss this community and come back to check if anything happened....but any way THANK YOU! Really glad I found this tonight :-)

Posted by: Felicite de Chocolat (babydollbonkers)
Posted at: May 16th, 2016 01:20 am (UTC)
RE: Yippiiiiiiieeeeee!

I literally let out a little squeal of surprised delight when I logged in and saw that someone had commented. First of all, it's nice to know that you're still lurking around, and even nicer to know that you read and liked my little short. I toyed with the idea of making it longer, but to be perfectly honest, there are so many unfinished projects that I should probably get back to if I did start posting more regularly, hehe. But I'm so glad this place isn't quite the ghost town that I thought it might be! :)

Posted by: englishrosie996 (englishrosie996)
Posted at: May 17th, 2016 08:23 pm (UTC)

Hi! I've lurked around reading posts on this community for a few years but never made an LJ account. However I felt I finally needed to make one just to comment on your post and tell you that I loved this entry AND I believe you also wrote my favourite series on here, Positive Change!!! I read that through every once in a while and always love it :D Please keep writing! From one JM fan to another -- and greetings from the UK! :-)

Posted by: Felicite de Chocolat (babydollbonkers)
Posted at: May 26th, 2016 02:15 pm (UTC)

Oh my god, thank you so much for your comment! I'm glad you created an account, and I'm so glad you liked this story and Positive Change (which I really had a lot of fun writing, haha). It's good to know there are still people lurking around here. :)

P.S. I don't know where in the UK you're from, but I visited Scotland and London last summer and fell in love with both of them! :)

Posted by: thaifoodlover (thaifoodlover)
Posted at: May 24th, 2016 04:43 am (UTC)

Thank God! I've known this site for two years at least, and I thought it was done for! I believe the original admin for this site is married now. Do you guys know anyone still active? I wasn't here when this place was in it's hey day, unfortunately. :(

Posted by: Felicite de Chocolat (babydollbonkers)
Posted at: May 26th, 2016 02:18 pm (UTC)

Awww... I'm glad you stuck around, even though it was kind of dead here! I knew it in its hey day, and it was a wonderful community. Unfortunately, I think it was just a case of too many combined forces working against it - people got busy, new venues for writing fan fiction emerged, and John's popularity and people's desire to write about him has sort of waned, I think. But I still love writing about him and would love to get things at least part of the way back to how they were before. Jaden was the original admin (chinolover07 I think was her name), but I haven't chatted with her in years. There were several other ladies that were active a couple years ago, but I don't know what they're up to now. :(

Posted by: ellimac_x (ellimac_x)
Posted at: June 29th, 2016 05:36 pm (UTC)

squeeeeeee! I saw (and commented on) your LJ post, and I checked here and found this lovely little short. This is giving me the writing bug for sure.

Wonderful, as always, my dear. :)

Posted by: Felicite de Chocolat (babydollbonkers)
Posted at: July 29th, 2016 02:10 pm (UTC)
Guitar as a violin

Let that writing bug bite you, because I would love, love, LOVE to read anything you wrote!!
And thank you! I haven't been inspired in a very long time, but I had just enough of a nudge from my muse to get this out, and I'm glad it doesn't totally suck. :)

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